I’m on a roll tonight…I guess tonight makes up for all these months of not using my tumblr. I wish I could laugh..and I mean a real laugh. Nothing makes me laugh anymore…I used to laugh all the time and smile. Give me back all that. 

I love swimming…I wish I could swim more often. I hardly ever go to the beach because I’m stuck living in the desert. I wan’t to buy a beach house and go swimming all the time and listen to the waves at night…I love the beach. 

I want to be able to feel like “wow today was a amazing day”….Hmmm. 

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It was great being part of the highschool life. Being young is amazing. I met different types of people…oh my gosh haha. Now its time to let it all go because I have accepted that people make plans..and they are plans that don’t include me. It’s sad but I can’t hold on to people who made the decision of choosing there dreams over me. Its okay. I’ll survive.  I can cry..but I won’t cry forever. At least I hope not to. I know I’m currently living in a tornado that is combined of both sadness and happiness but I’ll survive I have to, for myself. That’s all I will have in the next few months, myself. Just like before.. when no one wanted to be with me unless they needed something from me. Why must I care so much for people…I grow feelings so easily…I sometimes hate it no joke. All people do to me is make me cry. One way or another it always leads to that. I wonder if something is wrong with me ha. Oh well. Shit happens. 

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Fuck, my life is so lame.

Nobody probably cares what is going on inside of my heart but myself..I just wanted to say it doesn’t have to be a special holiday or day for me to love you. Everyday you just show me how much I’m not worth your time. You should be with someone who provides you with much love as you do to me. If you only had an idea how much you make me feel..maybe you’d help me figure it out. If the world was going to end I’d want one last opportunity to see you and tell you “i love you” even if it happened in 50 years from now. You’re a permanent memory on my heart.  Thank you for everything.